there was sleep. starving sleep. and the irritation of half awakedness. and the punishment of a romantic failure. it might be time to go soon. 'coz there is a light like a gun from out of the windows. explosive to the eyes. it might be time. so wake up. wake up now, dammit! wake up.

To my own Belinda

You wore that lacey purple blouse one rainy afternoon
you came through the crowd and passed through me
you were beautiful but your eyes were remarkably sad
you know that I did not come to stay with you

And when the crickets started to chirp,
you talked with them and laughed carelessly
and I thought that you could be happy
at least try even without me
i smiled and broke a tear off my eyes

If I could reach up and hold a star for everytime you made me smile,
I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand
but if in every tear I shed for you, a star would die,
I'd always go home empty-handed.
And i did.

Is there any way of loving that would make parting no sorrow at all?
I cling to my sorrow that you are not here,
I'll send up my cloud to catch sunshine
it is a kite that I pull with my heart strings.

That cloud I saw away to the right is coming this way toward me.
I can see the shadow of it now moving along a far-off strip of road
and I wonder if it is your cloud,
with you under it coming to see me again..

tulang dulot ng matagal na paghiga at pangungulila

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kung paanong tinalo mo ang buwan at mga tala sa langit ko ay gayunding pinawi mo ang mga ulan na labis na nagpapalungkot

iyong mga titig, yaong mga titig na hindi ko naibabalik, kung paanong ako'y nawawala sa mga pagkakataong binibigay mo 'yun, natutunaw, ay gayunding ako'y natatangay sa mga sandaling naalala ko 'yun

iyong mga ngiti, na hindi kailanman maipipinta kahit na ng mga pinakamagagandang kulay o kahit na ng pinakamatitingkad, ay siyang pumapalit sa araw, maliwanag, nakaliliyo ngunit hindi masangsang, hindi nakababagot

iyong mga halik, na di mapapantayan ng kahit na anong inuming matamis, kahit na iyong nasa bote na nakalalasing, nakapagpapalimot

hamak lamang ang naliligayahan sa mga bagay na iyon, kung gayon ako'y hamak, hamak na lubos, nilalang para mag-isip ng mga bagay na iyo, ikaw at ang pagnanais na muling makasama ka. ikaw lamang. wala ng ibang hihingin pa

just like a splendid delusion

you are not a dream, a ghost,
an apparition, but you have risen
from the dust of a deep corner,
I know for real that you were with me.

there’s somebody here at the moment

It happens once, in his absence.
The bright hall rings, rings and midring
clicks back over into silence.

It leaves two isolated sighs,
her, momentarily frozen
before an ocean of blank space

that by nightfall she’ll come across
and save the other against the
backdrop of grey midnight

she came; loneliness wiped away,
tomorrow and forever
they will never forget this moment.

some stars won't shine tonight

on the stilness of the night,
i lay underneath the forlorn sky
and watch my whole life fall apart.
with the stars that used to shine,
my dreams of fortunate mayhems,
flashing dainty sparks,
sailing the deepest sky,
moving...moving...
away, and it's gone...
crushing on the filthy earthen land.

one night and one thousand kisses

open the door and welcome the nightfall
for tonight i’ll be yours
your relief from the sorrows so deep
let me in to your arms, tonight i’ll be yours

chilling cold and lonely nights we’ve lived
will end tonight with the warmest sweet embrace
every twilight will become our dawn
of a day of nothing else but love and greater love

if every night you’d welcome a hopeless traveler,
then I hope I’d never find my way home
i’d rather be lost forever
than to miss a journey of one night and one thousand kisses