poems

2009-05-17T06:51:00.000-07:00

there was sleep. starving sleep. and the irritation of half awakedness. and the punishment of a romantic failure. it might be time to go soon. 'coz there is a light like a gun from out of the windows. explosive to the eyes. it might be time. so wake up. wake up now, dammit! wake up.

To my own Belinda

2009-04-05T03:21:00.000-07:00

You wore that lacey purple blouse one rainy afternoon
you came through the crowd and passed through me
you were beautiful but your eyes were remarkably sad
you know that I did not come to stay with you

And when the crickets started to chirp,
you talked with them and laughed carelessly
and I thought that you could be happy
at least try even without me
i smiled and broke a tear off my eyes

If I could reach up and hold a star for everytime you made me smile,
I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand
but if in every tear I shed for you, a star would die,
I'd always go home empty-handed.
And i did.

Is there any way of loving that would make parting no sorrow at all?
I cling to my sorrow that you are not here,
I'll send up my cloud to catch sunshine
it is a kite that I pull with my heart strings.

That cloud I saw away to the right is coming this way toward me.
I can see the shadow of it now moving along a far-off strip of road
and I wonder if it is your cloud,
with you under it coming to see me again..

tulang dulot ng matagal na paghiga at pangungulila

2008-10-30T18:14:00.000-07:00

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kung paanong tinalo mo ang buwan at mga tala sa langit ko ay gayunding pinawi mo ang mga ulan na labis na nagpapalungkot

iyong mga titig, yaong mga titig na hindi ko naibabalik, kung paanong ako'y nawawala sa mga pagkakataong binibigay mo 'yun, natutunaw, ay gayunding ako'y natatangay sa mga sandaling naalala ko 'yun

iyong mga ngiti, na hindi kailanman maipipinta kahit na ng mga pinakamagagandang kulay o kahit na ng pinakamatitingkad, ay siyang pumapalit sa araw, maliwanag, nakaliliyo ngunit hindi masangsang, hindi nakababagot

iyong mga halik, na di mapapantayan ng kahit na anong inuming matamis, kahit na iyong nasa bote na nakalalasing, nakapagpapalimot

hamak lamang ang naliligayahan sa mga bagay na iyon, kung gayon ako'y hamak, hamak na lubos, nilalang para mag-isip ng mga bagay na iyo, ikaw at ang pagnanais na muling makasama ka. ikaw lamang. wala ng ibang hihingin pa

just like a splendid delusion

2008-08-23T17:26:00.000-07:00

you are not a dream, a ghost,
an apparition, but you have risen
from the dust of a deep corner,
I know for real that you were with me.

there’s somebody here at the moment

2008-08-23T17:25:00.001-07:00

It happens once, in his absence.
The bright hall rings, rings and midring
clicks back over into silence.

It leaves two isolated sighs,
her, momentarily frozen
before an ocean of blank space

that by nightfall she’ll come across
and save the other against the
backdrop of grey midnight

she came; loneliness wiped away,
tomorrow and forever
they will never forget this moment.

some stars won't shine tonight

2008-08-07T20:05:00.000-07:00

on the stilness of the night,
i lay underneath the forlorn sky
and watch my whole life fall apart.
with the stars that used to shine,
my dreams of fortunate mayhems,
flashing dainty sparks,
sailing the deepest sky,
moving...moving...
away, and it's gone...
crushing on the filthy earthen land.

one night and one thousand kisses

2008-08-03T02:01:00.001-07:00

open the door and welcome the nightfall
for tonight i’ll be yours
your relief from the sorrows so deep
let me in to your arms, tonight i’ll be yours

chilling cold and lonely nights we’ve lived
will end tonight with the warmest sweet embrace
every twilight will become our dawn
of a day of nothing else but love and greater love

if every night you’d welcome a hopeless traveler,
then I hope I’d never find my way home
i’d rather be lost forever
than to miss a journey of one night and one thousand kisses

tonight i could hear the saddest melody

2008-08-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

i cry myself to sleep tonight
for the loneliest melody plays
and nobody shares a warm embrace
even the moon refused to be here tonight

tonight the saddest melody i could hear
base tremble deep down to my very soul
violins hit the highest keys reaching my heart,
soring it deeper,
its words is mute,
its silence tells a story
a whole story of unending sadness and tragedy

2008-07-05T22:29:00.000-07:00

i want to heal her sorrow
i want to cure her pain.
but what will i do, if the love that makes her happy
is also the love that makes her sad?

[Ana Jenni E. Malroy]

dit ditditdit didit dit di diditditdit di ditdi

2008-06-12T22:30:00.000-07:00

kung ikaw ay isang kasalanan di bale na.
ako'y muling magsusugal.
hindi na mag-iisip.
kung ang tama ay katumbas ng paglayo sa'yo,
di bale nang maging mali ako sa mahabang panahon.
kung wala na akong ginagawang tama, di bale na.
masaya akong andyan ka.
alam kong masaya ka din dahil di kita iniwan.
masaya na ako sa maliliit na tagpong tampok ang marami mong tuwa at tawa.
masaya na ako makipagtaguan sa teacher ko habang tumtyempo sa pagbasa ng txt mo.
wala nang iba.
wala akong hihinging kapalit.
wala akong pagsisisihan.
at para sa mga ngiti mo,
titig na kailanman ay hindi ko naibabalik,
sa maraming mga bagay na ninakaw mo,
at pagmamahal na hindi ko inaasahang maibabalik,
di bale na. hindi bale na.
pipiliin kong maging makasalanan.
mananatili sa kamalian.
hanggat may bilog na buwan,
at nakakatuwang mga ulap sa himpapawid,
mamahalin kita,
mamahalin at patuloy na mamahalin.
isa kang magandang kasalanan.

2008-06-01T04:10:00.000-07:00

fleeting silence.vagueness.assumption.lies.idiosyncrasy.treason to the norms.naiveness.jealousy.cowardness.treason.

SINS I'M PAYING FOR THE LAST 72 HOURS OF MY LIFE.

summer in neverland

2008-05-30T22:31:00.000-07:00

...the summer I spent there
is the summer I'll miss all over.

the padawan

2008-05-29T03:43:00.000-07:00

I is to be unknown..
for me to be able to love and serve fairly..
for me not to be tempted to vie for recognition..
for me not to expect love and service in return..
for my true intetions not to be unveiled..
my fate is to be misunderstood
because I am created to serve only and exist silently..

once in a blue moon

2008-05-27T19:09:00.000-07:00

Pale moonlight showers the earth tonight.
There and again I dream.
I wish.
In silence I scream.

I dream of a love
I thought I have received
Indeed, I did,
But now I have woke up.

I wish to go back
And leave this dreadful piece unfinished.
Go back to where I knew
The moon turns to blue.

I scream, I did scream.
Wonder no voice.
The depth of this course is deep.
The echoes of the unspoken voice then said from within:
“You’ll be there just once,
You’ve been there once in your blue moon,
You’ll be there just once.
Leave now you should,
For the dawn is hasty creeping.”

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2008-04-30T05:14:00.000-07:00

words, words, words..

once i had a gift,

make love out of words;

now taken in a drift

drift, let's call him love

no words a poet could write

so as no peace could bring a dove;

like a fight without any might

it cripples my hand

so as the ripple of my thought

it gives no demand, none, neither demand;

the riddle of love put it all in slaught

go, curse Cupid,

go, curse the doubt

either way it's stupid

for love from nowhere it sprout

mornings of glory

and shadows of the moon;

there is no greater story

than you, finding me so soon

my speech has been taken,

my pen has been broken;

hell knows how i love you,

heaven knows that it's true

i curse you and for that,

curse me, for this one is true;

curse the bold poet,

that is truly out of hue

ode to my death

2008-04-27T03:48:00.000-07:00

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I'm not there, I didn't die;
Still I can feel the blades of rain

And the sun still warms my childish terrain

I see you and the flowers in hue

White roses, fair proses and the great sky of blue

The zephyr, the fire and the fear

I see them more clearly, I see like a seer

Play of the twilight on creamy walls

Teutonic folklore and all of the trolls

Happy thoughts and chasing windmills

Stories I used to tell will be told at your wills

Two ravens stood and stumbled to death

I know it was them that would lie underneath

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there, I did not die.